I went back to NYC (I was there the week before shelter in place began) and was there with my room mate. We were trying to figure out activities we could do. I was anxious, sure most things were closed. She told me there would be a big open house at a hospital nearby. I said “I don’t think I’m comfortable going there with the crowds.” I thought, “I’m here, maybe I could probably get one really expensive meal out.” But realized I’d be dining not just by myself, but *entirely* by myself. I tried to figure out how to order bagels for delivery instead.